While going back and forth on how to write these posts, where to begin, and what pictures best match the post, I constantly remind myself to just write something. After all, the point of this blog is to help me overcome my anxiety and find joy and happiness in everything- especially in things I used to enjoy.
Over time, my enjoyment of social media and just being social decreased while my social anxiety increased. I overthink just about anything and everything; what do people want to see, what should I show them, what should I say, how should I say it, am I boring, will this person judge me, etc. You get the idea. I overthink so much that even when I do want to post, days will go by and I have only thought about posting rather than just do it. I need to remind myself that this is primarily for myself to enjoy it all again, to find joy in it all rather than anxiety, and above all, my happiness matters the most.
So here I am, thinking about two weeks ago when I was cleaning my home while listening to the Spice Girls (“Spice World” is the best song to dance around to while cleaning), and their song(s) empowered and inspired me to surround myself with things that literally bring me happiness. Naturally, I kept listening and dancing to music that always bring my mood up, cooked myself a healthy meal of pasta with fresh veggies, danced around some more, and I believe I painted a bit that night. Since that day, I have been making an effort (on some days an effort and a half) to do at least one thing that will bring me happiness for the day, each day, and I apply this to every other aspect of my life as well (basically food, clothes, and my daily activities). Of course, I have bad and sad days as well, and I make sure to treat myself to ice cream and be extra gentle with myself. After all, it’s all a process.
So, my dear, what things make you happy? Will you also try to incorporate at least one thing each day to bring you a small happiness?